The Four Agreements Tom Brady made that helped him get through Deflategate

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Why is there still a taboo around self-help books? Do you think they are only for those who are “depressed” and “need extra help”? Do you walk straight past that section of the bookstore, making sure not to stop or look too long in case someone thinks something is wrong with you? I’m sure this isn’t you because if it was, you probably wouldn’t be reading my blog. But it was me a few months ago.

If Tom Brady is reading self-help books, than so can you

He discussed the book that changed it all for him in an article written almost a year ago on Boston.com. So yes, I’m late to the game, but I believe it is extremely timely due to his recent decision in the Deflategate case. There’s no doubt this book didn’t have an affect on him and his decision to take the four game suspension rather than continuing with his case and escalating it to the Supreme Court.

Spill it Nance, what’s the book you’re talking about?

Yes, I am talking in third person. Why? Because it’s fun and I feel like it 🙂 If you already clicked on the links I provided above than you know what book I’m talking about. It’s called The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz and I actually read it before I even knew Tom Brady read it because it was recommended to me by my friend Chelsea Miller (I’m so hipster 😉 ). I just recently found out my boy Brady read this book and it got me really excited, so much so that I had to write about it. The Four Agreements is a pretty freakin’ epic book and I totally understand why Brady has been reading it for the past 10 years and why he rereads it before every football season. It’s just as amazing that Gisele has also referred to The Four Agreements in multiple interviews and that it has influenced her thoughts and her life in an equally profound way.  Power couple much? Couples who read self-help books together, stay together and conquer the world.

So what are The Four Agreements and why is it so epic?

Well where do I even start? This actually works out super well because The Four Agreements is the first book I ever listened to as an audiobook. I’m definitely old school, I like holding my books and having paper copies of them (to write in, dog ear, and highlight) but my friend and I are doing a book club and he lets me use his Audible account so he bought it on there and we both listened to it. Listening to the book allowed me to take notes on an amazing app called Evernote that I adore. These notes are perfect because I can use them to share some big points I typed out while I was listening. This book is definitely spiritual, very deep, and sometimes hard to understand because what Don Miguel Ruiz is discussing is so abstract and not the way most people are used to thinking. But it is certainly worth the read (and re read) in order to help you change your thinking, the agreements you make, and your life.

Don Miguel Ruiz starts off with some important general points:

  • We never had the opportunity to choose what to believe or what not to believe. We were given our beliefs from childhood and we have held on to these beliefs ever since. In order to create new beliefs we need to agree with new ideas. This is extremely difficult to do because it causes us to feel unsafe. –> To realize that I was given my beliefs and that they aren’t true was HUGE for me. I can CHOOSE to believe anything I want. And so can you. Boom.
  • As a child, our reward was attention from other people. As a child, we try to please our parents and our teachers. The fear of being rejected becomes the fear of not being good enough. Eventually we become a copy of other people’s beliefs.–>A part of me is (and has always been) a people pleaser so this hit home for me. I always wanted to be the “perfect” child. I always wanted to do everything right, get the good grades, the amazing job, I wanted to make everyone else proud and I wanted to make them happy. I need to be validated, I need attention. This then creates a fear of being rejected because I so crave acceptance and love and I am always striving for more so I don’t feel good enough right now.
  •  Being ourselves is our biggest fear because we fear we will be rejected and that we won’t be good enough.
  • No one abuses me more than I abuse myself. This stems from believing I need to be perfect, hiding that imperfection, feeling inauthentic, rejecting myself and punishing myself. Self abuse comes from self rejection. Self rejection comes from an image of perfection.
  • The most important agreements are the ones with myself. Break the agreements that are fear-based. The agreements based in love are #1 and the absolute truth. The only way to break an agreement is to make a new agreement based on truth (aka love).

Okay and now finally the actual Four Agreements:

  1. Be impeccable with my word. 
    • This was a hard one for me to get. On the surface it looks like, “okay be truthful, keep my word, don’t lie, got it. Nothing new. Easy enough.” But then Don Miguel goes on to say, “How much I love myself and how I feel about myself is directly proportional to the quality and integrity and impeccability of my word.” Whaaat wow. Damn that shit’s deep. Read that a few times and really let it sink in. So basically the more you love yourself, the more impeccable your word is. Makes sense since the truth is love and if you are to be speaking the truth, you need to be speaking love and that all starts with loving yourself.
  2. Don’t take anything personally.
    • This is one that Tom Brady specifically talks about in his interview and one that really helped him through the Deflategate case. He didn’t allow himself to take what was being said about him or what was happening as something personal. This of course is extremely difficult and takes strength and practice but it’s a habit that can be built over time. Everything people do and say is because of themselves and their opinions, beliefs and feelings in their own minds. If I take things personally then I poison my mind.By taking things personally I set myself up to suffer for nothing. This agreement is something I have really been practicing and it was been helping me so so much. As a sensitive, emotional, and caring person, it is extra hard for me to not take things personally but by reminding myself of Ruiz’s words that what people say has only to do with themselves I’ve been getting much better at this practice. One of my favorite sayings also helps as an amazing reminder, “What you think of me is none of my business.”
  3. Don’t make assumptions.
    • Ask questions rather than make assumptions. We make assumptions because we are too afraid to ask for clarification. This is another reason why communication is key. When we communicate, we are clearing up the situation and dissolving assumptions. Assumptions set us up for suffering. And of course they make an ass out of you and me 😉 (hehe sorry I had to). We make the assumption that people see us the way we see ourselves. Before other people can judge or reject us, we judge and reject ourselves.
  4. Always do my best.
    • It doesn’t matter if I’m sick or tired, just do my best in that moment. Don’t overextend myself. My best will change depending on the time of day, my health and my feelings and that is OK. When I always do my best, I take action. Take action because I love it, not because I expect a reward. This was another light bulb moment for me. Action dissolves fear and anxiety. When you take action you cannot fail, only learn and grow. When I do my best, I learn to accept myself.

Whoa. That’s a lot of heavy, deep shit right?

Uh yeah. That’s why Tom Brady and Gisele are freakin’ badasses.And that’s also why they have read The Four Agreements multiple times. It’s hard to digest and understand at first because what Don Miguel Ruiz is shining a light upon are things we don’t ever think about or can fully digest the first time around.

You have to be very strong to follow these agreements. Warning: most people do not think this way or hold these agreements in their mind so you are the minority. Get used to it.

The first step to following the agreements is being aware of them so that’s checked off your list- woohoo! Next you have to allow yourself to be imperfect, you won’t follow all of these agreements all of the time, and that is normal, expected and a good thing because it means you’re not some crazy robot. You have to be committed, dedicated and hardworking. Write these agreements out in places where you will see them often to remind yourself of them (I like using index cards and taping them on my wall, hanging them next to my desk at work, putting them in my backpack).  Start noticing your old thoughts and little by little start replacing your old agreements and beliefs with new ones that align with the above four agreements.

There are so many more notes I have typed out and so much more I could go in to but I will leave you guys with this because I want you to read the book for yourself 🙂 If this post has motivated and intrigued you to purchase the book please consider supporting me by ordering the book here (or clicking on any of the links above).

I would be honored to hear your thoughts and opinions on the book and how it has helped shape your life after reading it so please contact me using the form below because I would love to chat about it <3

 

 

 

 

 

 

Binge Eating-It’s Not Just Something I do on Weekends or Holidays

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I recently searched “binge eating” on Twitter to see what I was going to find and I came across this extremely informative article that discusses what everyone should know about Binge Eating Disorder. It’s one of those phrases people throw around casually (“Oh my god I totally binged on a bag of chips and a package of cookies last night.”). And most people don’t really understand the seriousness of it because everyone overeats and feels guilty about it at some point in their lives so binge eating is normal and okay to do right?

I beg to differ.

Binge eating disorder is another level, a whole different extreme. It’s a disorder. It’s an eating disorder. It’s actually the most common eating disorder in the U.S. If you didn’t click on the link above, or if you did and decided the article was too long (I really hope that wasn’t the case), I’ve summarized the main points in the article as well as elaborated on my story a bit. I feel it is so very important for people to see what binge eating disorder is in order to bring awareness and understanding to something that 3 to 5 percent of women suffer from.

Approximately 57% of binge eating disorder sufferers never receive treatment. This breaks my heart. Especially since the recovery rate is higher than recovery from anorexia or bulimia. I can absolutely understand why the majority of those suffering don’t receive treatment because that was me for almost 2 years.

My journey has been, and still is, complicated.

When I first began binge eating, the spring of 2014, I thought it was something I could totally stop cold turkey. I would tell myself, “That was my last binge ever.” “I can do this on my own.” “I will stop soon-when I want to.”

A part of me didn’t realize how abnormal my behavior was, I didn’t realize I needed help because at first it wasn’t that bad.

So what, I’d go to City Convenience and buy a package of cookie dough and eat the entire thing in one sitting, or I would go to Insomnia Cookies and buy myself a cookiewich (ice cream sandwiched in between 2 cookies). But I deserved it. I had dieted for 16 weeks for a bikini competition and now I had nothing to work towards.

I had no one expecting anything of me.

I was alone.

Very soon my binges spiraled out of control. A package of cookie dough or a cookiewich weren’t enough. I wanted both. And then I wanted something salty to eat afterwards. And then I wanted more and more and more.

I wanted to fill myself up to the point where I couldn’t eat anymore. I wanted to be totally and completely full. Or else it wouldn’t be enough. I would be disappointed.

These are all traditional characteristics of binge eating disorder, things that make my behavior abnormal. Not only did the amount of food I ate escalate, but so did the frequency of my binges. It went from once a week, to twice a week, to every few days, to every day. It was becoming a habit. But there were also days (almost full weeks) that went by where I didn’t binge. I had a calendar on my wall where I would mark a smiley face in blue pen on the days I didn’t binge. I felt so proud when I got to draw that face and so guilty and disappointed when I didn’t.

Another reason I didn’t seek treatment, or did seek it and then stopped, was because binge eating doesn’t completely disrupt my life.

I’d say I’m a functional binge eater.

When I was binge eating while at school I still showed up to class, I got good grades, I hung out with my friends, I made it to my club meetings. I binged through senior events, graduation, getting a new job. I did what I had to do and didn’t drop the ball on any of it. I was making it work.

My life was fine.

But it wasn’t. After suffering completely alone, in shame, loneliness and isolation for a few months, I realized recovery was harder than just saying, “I’m never going to binge again.” I knew something bigger and deeper was going on. Why would I make myself feel so sick with food, so full and bloated and disgusted and then do it over and over again? I knew I needed professional help. So I looked up a kind, wonderful woman who had experience with eating disorders. She was my therapist and I saw her for a few months. I also went to a nutritionist and I saw a psychiatrist, all at the same time, but something didn’t feel right. I don’t know if it was because I wasn’t ready to get better, or because I didn’t believe I could get better, or something else, but I stopped going. I told myself it was too expensive, that I was still binging so it wasn’t working, that I could get better on my own. Again, like most of society, I didn’t recognize the seriousness of the situation. I didn’t recognize how horrible and awful and depressed I felt. I watched Youtube videos to try and get help, I read an amazing book called Brain Over Binge, which I totally got because I am a Neuroscience major, and I thought I would get better on my own again. But none of that worked for me. I now think it was because I didn’t fully comprehend that my binge eating has to do with my emotions and my feelings.

There is nothing wrong with me.

I am not a problem that needs to be fixed. I just deal with my emotions in a different way. I seek fulfillment from food rather than from friends, family, a good book, or writing. But I would have never realized this on my own. I think I read about this before, I’m sure my therapist had mentioned it, but it had to be coming from the right person at the right time for it to really sink in. Even with all of the knowledge I have gained in the past few months, all of the amazing, empowering conversations I have, and rituals I do, I am still struggling with binge eating. It definitely gets worse before it gets better but I am borrowing other’s faith in order to find the strength, positivity and power to keep moving forward.